.God's.got.our.backs.

So today was one of those days that reminded me of how HUGE a sinner I am...  in "today's world", this might not be a big deal, but in Jesus' eyes, this shows how my actions are mirroring what's in my heart....

My sister spent the night last night so that I could take her to the train station in the morning.  Since I didn't live very far, I planned on leaving 20 minutes before her train came.  No problem, I didn't mind at all taking her.  But then I woke up finding out that there's a ton of snow outside, in which my sister told me to "watch it, it's so pretty".  With only 5 hours of sleep, I simply replied, "no".  I went out and scrapped the car.

Fast forward past me having to get gas, driving slow in the snow-covered road, and only having about 7 minutes before her train leaves. 

Here's the part where I broke...  I thought I knew how to get there, but I turned down the wrong road being on the wrong side of the track with no way to cross and out of time.  I got a little frustrated and tried to turn around only to be slowly sliding into someone's curb on the street corner.  My tire was stuck and I yelled out in frustration/anger and punched the arm rest so hard.  I'm glad my sister has more patience than me.  Plus, unfortunately from past experiences, she has learned to stay quiet until I cool off....  I haven't reacted in that way in such a long time.  I hate it.

To shorten that part of the story, I called Andy and he calmed me down and saved the day.  I got my tire unstuck and took Laura to the station (her train was very late anyways).  

I really felt defeated that I acted in such an uncontrollable way.  I thought in my head, "what happened to the new 'laid-back, it's not the end of the world' mind-set of Lacy".  God spoke to me saying, "what happened to the 'call for God's help' heart of Lacy".  I held back tightly all the tears from my eyes. (I was in the car with Andy; I didn't feel like explaining at that moment.)  I'm very thankful that my sister is a 'walk by the Spirit' kinda Christian.  I apologized to her and she sent a text saying, "its ok. i understand. God's got our backs. :) ". 

It's not JUST about trying to be a positive person.  I got that laid-back mind-set from God because He's got it all under control.  Me reacting in the way I did showed me I'm not going to Him.  I tried to be positive on my own and I failed.  This all reminded me of these verses, Romans 8:28-31.  If God is for us, who can be against us?   If you click on this statement, it will take you to a commentary of what these verses are about.  I know it's more reading, but if anyone has been having difficulties, maybe this could be uplifting for you.  It's an awesome reminder that God's got our backs.

(I had another thing that happened that made me feel like even more of a failure, but I thought this blog was long enough.  Let's just say that I need to be less of a snob and more loving.)

.how.the.magic.started.

 We didn't really get a chance to choose wedding pics to frame, so I'm just putting this up on my blog to not forget the information.

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.why.are.you.a.christian.anyways?

"Rise up, you women who are at ease, and hear my [Isaiah's] voice, give ear to my word, you complacent daughters." Isaiah 32:9

complacent:  pleased, especially with oneself or one's merits, advantages, situation, etc., often without awareness of some potential danger or defect; self-satisfied

The definition seems to be positive, I mean who wouldn't want to be pleased with their own excellence and good-doing.  Then the words "self-satisfied" pop-up; it's what American society teaches us.  It's one thing to be proud of yourself for a minute, but when people are so consumed with themselves that they don't notice things are going down the drain around them.  Most Americans are self-absorbed.  It's self-everything.  Self-confidence, self-esteem, self-help, self-belief, self-development, etc. (not all "self-" words are bad; like "self-control")  Here's something that I personally think is ridiculous:  I AM.  It's a self-help article or something.  I'm pretty sure that the only "i am" is God.  (Exodus 3:14)  I'm not trying to be insensitive.  I just have this question in my head:  "Why would you go to yourself for help?"  If I needed help in a situation, the last person I'm going to is myself; I'm going to be looking for someone else to help me.  Anyways, that's another blog, but I was just trying to say, "Go to God, He will definitely help you".

What God is saying is don't be so absorbed with your own life that you are at ease while the morality (politically and spiritually) is going down the drain.  Isaiah was trying to get the women's attention because he thought they could make things better.  The people were so far from God they didn't even recognize Him anymore! (Isaiah 1:2-4)  If you read Isaiah 32:9-20, it's inspiring and motivating!  But what can one woman do?  That's what I think sometimes.  What does it matter if I uphold God's principles?  There will still be wickedness in this world.  Wow, how can I not trust in the power of the Holy Spirit?  Sometimes I think we should ask ourselves why we became a Christian in the first place.  What is the purpose of being a Christian? 

I'm at fault with being absorbed in my own life too.  It's easy to do because that's what our society throws at us.  I want to be more concerned about people. I want to stand up for God's principles.  I want to live my life more than myself.  It's gonna be a challenge.  I almost don't want to because I know I'm gonna fail.  But that verse up top (Isaiah 32:9), is talking about me and I don't want to just be a hearer of God's word, but a doer. Christian women, we need to be doers.  There is a reason why we chose to become Christians.  If you don't know why, then find out.

I was jamming in my car to "Fireflight".  They are awesome in concert.  Christy and I saw them in Chicago this past summer.  Well, I was listening to their cd and his song came on that made me think of this blog, SO I'm gonna share cause I'm nice like that :)  The title of the song is "Myself".