Andy and I are going to be making some decisions in the near future. Not going to discuss them now because we are still searching what God wants us to do. I just wanted to share a little something that I thought was amazing and clear to the point of what Christ expects from me personally.
In my quiet time, I've been doing this bible study series called "Live Intimately- Lessons from the Upper Room" with my friend Christy. It's been challenging and very refreshing when getting back to the basics of having a relationship with Christ. Sometimes we (Christians) make our relationship with Christ so complicated that a bunch of bumbo jumbo gets in the way of being intimate with Him.
Anyways, I came across this paragraph that says this:
"If you [are willing to be involved in simple obedience], you will most certainly grow in God's grace. If you obey, Christ will increasingly unveil his heart to you. You will come to know Him and not just about Him. On the other hand, if you fail to obey, he will cease to reveal Himself to you, and your own love for Him will weaken (James Montgomery Boice)."
I want to see Christ desperately; I want to have a genuine love for Him- not just head knowledge.
"1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13:1-3)"
I can do all these things and seem like a "good" person, but if I don't have Christ's love in me- being a "good" person is worthless.... Being a "good" Christian doesn't get you anywhere except for just putting on a show. And for who? People? Ourselves? We might say it's for God, but is it really? People with discernment can tell the difference between Christians who put on a show and Christians who live genuinely- it's called the Holy Spirit.
I guess what I'm trying to get at is that I don't want to be stuck in the same place putting on a show of being a "good" Christian and that's good enough. I want God to know that He can use Andy and I because we want to have a genuine love for Him and people. (It's definitely a learning process.) If I'm not living intimately with Christ, how can I know His heart? How can I know what He wants us to do with our lives if we are living in our own little Christian show trying to please others? It's miserable!
Our priorities reveal our passions. Those passionate about Christ are recipients of God's love. Those passionate about worldly pursuits won't find favor with God. (I got this from the study too.) And this is clearly backed up by scripture:
"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. (1 John 2:15).
My desire is that Andy and I can set our priorities straight and make Christ our life. I don't want to make any decisions without Him because wherever or whatever we do won't glorify God. What kind of godly example as future parents is that for Ezra? We are realizing that our decisions don't just affect us anymore, but affects our future kids. No better way to make a decision than to follow after Christ. I pray that our kids learn that.
These are just a few of the many thoughts that go through my head and heart. For being a person that potentially has adhd, I would say this is the most organized way of flowing my thoughts together.
